These are not as well done as they could have been. I got into my favourite dance duds, ran upstairs when the house was quiet, set up a tripod, dashed and posed on the timer a few times, grabbed the tripod, and headed back downstairs to my underground abode. I could have asked, I guess, when my landlord was going to be out, but then I'd have to admit I was 'taking photos for a self portrait marathon' - and who wants to admit a thing like that? Okay, so they're blurry. Sorry. And the bookcase smack behind me, well, some clone stamping, and viola! Gone for all intents and purposes! Okay, so I had to blur the background over the vanished books with an impressionist brush, put a spotlight or so on each figure to make them visible... shucks, I'm only tryin'! I am posting these with the affirmation that I will make my final self portrait out of them by Saturday. In storage I have a large 8' x 5' mirror that I practice poetry/dance performance pieces before, dang if I can manifest one of those mirrors before the ending of the marathon - hence the camera. And I will write a prose poem too... (please tell me I'm silly, because really I am :).
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Monday, July 03, 2006
Self Portrait #9
For Sparky's Self Portrait Marathon. Take a look at the slideshow of all the entries in the marathon, fabulous! This excessive gaze at the self is over at the end of the week. Doing these self portraits is excruciating.
The face is wider and rounder than mine- but I'm not aiming for a "photograph." I had difficulty uploading a photo with an accurate rendition of the colours and white in all the right places. I eventually photographed it in direct sun, the light of which is glancing off the paint.
7.75" x 10.25", oil on perhaps paper, perhaps canvas, I don't know, I bought a few rolls of it at Active Surplus awhile back.
The face is wider and rounder than mine- but I'm not aiming for a "photograph." I had difficulty uploading a photo with an accurate rendition of the colours and white in all the right places. I eventually photographed it in direct sun, the light of which is glancing off the paint.
7.75" x 10.25", oil on perhaps paper, perhaps canvas, I don't know, I bought a few rolls of it at Active Surplus awhile back.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Workspace
You can see the little card table, and the board on which the last self portrait is taped. Above it is our "dinner table," and about 3 feet away, where the camera is, is my futon couch/bed. The computer is inbetween, as well as an older Ikea leather chair. It's called cram-it-in in the most minimalist way possible. I know it's hard to imagine, but cozy is the word for it. Two can fit in here if we stay seated; three, and it's over-crowded... :)
Friday, June 30, 2006
Paper Wings
This poem's joined The Festival of the Trees 1 --- swing over, hyperlink-like, and read Dave's great inaugural celebration on all the terrific posts submitted. Every month there'll be a blog post by one of the rotating editors :) devoted to collecting all the posts submitted that month on trees. Tree worship is alive and well and thriving!
Paper Wings
I open 500 envelopes a day: transactions, records, letters. Slice them open like pockets, remove sheaths of paper.
Paper cuts, edges like swords.
The first paper was stone. Scrawling on cave walls, then wet clay tablets, wax-coated inscribed by metal, bone, ivory stylus. Papyrus, sheepskin, parchment.
Unfold letters, staple, sort, deliver it to the offices.
Papering the world. It burns. Flames of culture singe.
From pictures to pictographs to abstract figures to alphabets, our grammars of sound ground into ink of soot, glue and water scratched with reeds, or quills, taking the five outer wing feathers of geese, swans, crows, owls, turkeys, hawks.
As body is to breath,
paper and ink are to mind.
Without papyrus, animal skin, parchment, vellum or the plant fibre, cellulose mulch of pressed paper... our history.
The body of language is inked paper.
The Gutenberg Printing Press, replaceable wooden letters. 1436. Cursive handwriting, 1495, Manutius of Venice, the 'running hand.'
Our 26 alphabet letters not till the end of the 16th century.
Mass printing. Mass distribution. Wide scale literacy.
The first paper was stone. You drew on the cave walls.
The world is papered with knowledge. Burn all the paper in the stoneage firepit of our souls.
Smooth burning words under my fingers.
Forests are the lungs of the planet; and wood dust and water promise of immortality.
Give us our words, records, songs, drawings, photographs, to store. Save diagrams of what houses us. Even Capitalism depends on the paper that money is printed on. Bank statements, loans, stock certificates. Cheques, vouchers, tickets. Medical, dental records. Taxes. All the transactions.
Delible records kept in the vaults of time. Mementos.
Ownership tattooed in the ink on the paper that becomes passport of proof.
Birth and baptism and education and marriage and employment and travel and retirement and death certificates.
The paper trail of our lives.
Envelopes as wallpaper. Bodily fluids, tissue papers. Cards, wrapping, origami. Computer paper. Specially treated, bonded. Newspapers, boxes.
The world is awash with paper.
Inscribed paper.
Mind. Hand. Ink. Paper.
My letter opener flashes like a slicing knife.
Envelope after envelope, stack after stack of paper. Filing ourselves. Pixelated language printed out reams upon reams collected, stored.
I wander the stacks of the library afterwards, shelf upon shelf, floor upon floor of bound books of yellowed paper inscribed with words, figures, numbers, images.
This gift of trees,
memory of ourselves.
This love letter
of paper.
________
ah, sigh, I've been tinkering with this for months, it just keeps growing...
Paper Wings
I open 500 envelopes a day: transactions, records, letters. Slice them open like pockets, remove sheaths of paper.
Paper cuts, edges like swords.
The first paper was stone. Scrawling on cave walls, then wet clay tablets, wax-coated inscribed by metal, bone, ivory stylus. Papyrus, sheepskin, parchment.
Unfold letters, staple, sort, deliver it to the offices.
Papering the world. It burns. Flames of culture singe.
From pictures to pictographs to abstract figures to alphabets, our grammars of sound ground into ink of soot, glue and water scratched with reeds, or quills, taking the five outer wing feathers of geese, swans, crows, owls, turkeys, hawks.
As body is to breath,
paper and ink are to mind.
Without papyrus, animal skin, parchment, vellum or the plant fibre, cellulose mulch of pressed paper... our history.
The body of language is inked paper.
The Gutenberg Printing Press, replaceable wooden letters. 1436. Cursive handwriting, 1495, Manutius of Venice, the 'running hand.'
Our 26 alphabet letters not till the end of the 16th century.
Mass printing. Mass distribution. Wide scale literacy.
The first paper was stone. You drew on the cave walls.
The world is papered with knowledge. Burn all the paper in the stoneage firepit of our souls.
Smooth burning words under my fingers.
Forests are the lungs of the planet; and wood dust and water promise of immortality.
Give us our words, records, songs, drawings, photographs, to store. Save diagrams of what houses us. Even Capitalism depends on the paper that money is printed on. Bank statements, loans, stock certificates. Cheques, vouchers, tickets. Medical, dental records. Taxes. All the transactions.
Delible records kept in the vaults of time. Mementos.
Ownership tattooed in the ink on the paper that becomes passport of proof.
Birth and baptism and education and marriage and employment and travel and retirement and death certificates.
The paper trail of our lives.
Envelopes as wallpaper. Bodily fluids, tissue papers. Cards, wrapping, origami. Computer paper. Specially treated, bonded. Newspapers, boxes.
The world is awash with paper.
Inscribed paper.
Mind. Hand. Ink. Paper.
My letter opener flashes like a slicing knife.
Envelope after envelope, stack after stack of paper. Filing ourselves. Pixelated language printed out reams upon reams collected, stored.
I wander the stacks of the library afterwards, shelf upon shelf, floor upon floor of bound books of yellowed paper inscribed with words, figures, numbers, images.
This gift of trees,
memory of ourselves.
This love letter
of paper.
________
ah, sigh, I've been tinkering with this for months, it just keeps growing...
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Self Portrait #8, plus photos
This week I tutored a sweet Japanese Physics student through stages of a philosophy paper, it was hard work for both of us -me eliciting coherent ideas and grammar, he pushing himself to produce, and then felt bad because I spent the money on paints and cheap brushes (when I have tubes of paint and sable brushes in storage). But a friend at another site loves #7 and has asked about it, so I should feel better...
Also I found a card table with a wobbly leg that I fixed in about 2 seconds and it's now a 'painting table' - so I don't have to put the dishes on the floor while I use the tiny bathroom counter - although it takes up nearly all the room in my tiny space. It's so damp down here too, that I wonder how these paintings will dry. Oh, fret, fret.
Ok, a garden goddess, based on a photo my daughter took (my choice of location & pose, I couldn't resist those roses), and I look way younger, but whadya wanna make of it? ::grins:: Paint & brush seem to be doing their own thing. Perhaps I'm celebrating a younger self, who knows. I guess I'll have to get a really fine brush to darken the face more & put a teeny tiny dot of colour in the eyes...
It strikes me that the 'open heart' of Self Portrait #7 has here turned into a canopy of open, blossoming magenta roses...
Oil on canvas, 9.25" x 7.75".
Update: Here's a merge of some photos over the last three years... no, one can't be blonde forever:) Click for larger size.
For Sparky's Self Portrait Marathon.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Morning Pages...
What engulfs emits light.
_________________
I had put this commentary in a comment below, something I might try from time to time when I don't want to overload the image for you...
I read this article, Lighter Side of Black Holes, and later the image I've posted emerged. As I pondered my syllogism, what engulfs emits light, I wondered how it would translate across time shifts and conscious ripples. The statement spawned in my consciousness from reading about a 'scientific discovery,' that is presumably based in the empirical world, in the 'real' world of verifiable happenings, could be applied to other areas of human experience.
Emotionally what does it mean: what engulfs emits light.
And in terms of a kind of dominant gene, combative, Darwinian survival-of-the-fittest, Tennyson Nature-red-in-tooth-and-claw, all the devouring that goes on, is there always a record of the engulfment? That light is emitted?
The conclusions my night-time/morning mind came to, what engulfs emits light, have pulled me into strange and wondrous musings on the philosophical ramifications...
"Scientists have cracked a huge cosmic paradox — how black holes can be the darkest objects known but also responsible for a quarter of all light and other radiation produced in the universe since the Big Bang."
Like, wow.
_________________
I had put this commentary in a comment below, something I might try from time to time when I don't want to overload the image for you...
I read this article, Lighter Side of Black Holes, and later the image I've posted emerged. As I pondered my syllogism, what engulfs emits light, I wondered how it would translate across time shifts and conscious ripples. The statement spawned in my consciousness from reading about a 'scientific discovery,' that is presumably based in the empirical world, in the 'real' world of verifiable happenings, could be applied to other areas of human experience.
Emotionally what does it mean: what engulfs emits light.
And in terms of a kind of dominant gene, combative, Darwinian survival-of-the-fittest, Tennyson Nature-red-in-tooth-and-claw, all the devouring that goes on, is there always a record of the engulfment? That light is emitted?
The conclusions my night-time/morning mind came to, what engulfs emits light, have pulled me into strange and wondrous musings on the philosophical ramifications...
"Scientists have cracked a huge cosmic paradox — how black holes can be the darkest objects known but also responsible for a quarter of all light and other radiation produced in the universe since the Big Bang."
Like, wow.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Morning Pages...
Once it appeared in the world, there was a difference.
Things weren't the same afterwards.
What was puzzling was that no-one noticed when it happened. Life went on.
But everything had changed utterly.
Things weren't the same afterwards.
What was puzzling was that no-one noticed when it happened. Life went on.
But everything had changed utterly.
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