Cherry Blossoms in Storms, 2012, Brenda Clews, 22" x 16", 56cm x 40.5cm, charcoal on triple-primed cotton canvas sheet. Figures from a lifedrawing site, 10 min poses on my iPhone 4, didn't have my proper glasses, but it's ok.
Where I'm at today. Fighting off, well stuff of all sorts - the kind that tries to silence you - doing yoga and meditating.
Originally I called it Harmony in Chaos, but... gladiolus in travail.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Friday, July 13, 2012
Blake Man briefly became The Homeless Man, but now he's PRIMAL MAN
Primal Man, Brenda Clews, 2012, 24" x 18", 60cm x 45cm, charcoal, acrylic ink, oil paint on 90lb archival paper.
Now that I understand how important 'Optimism' is (I listened to a PODCAST), I understand I must shelve this drawing's original meaning...
Bye, bye the desperations in what I originally wrote:
I want it to be quite painful to look at, to get at feeling this... vulnerability, desperation, a hostile world internally and externally, loss ...perhaps a veteran suffering from PTSD, perhaps this is his nightmare. ...And yet. there is blue sky, patches of green grass in the dry yellow. While he seems almost praying or acknowledging the difficulties of the forces about him in a bowed position, and even insurmountably crawling forward, he also connects deeply to the ground on 'all fours.' In my sense of it, he draws energy for existence itself from the earth.
Bye, bye the desperations in what I originally wrote:
I want it to be quite painful to look at, to get at feeling this... vulnerability, desperation, a hostile world internally and externally, loss ...perhaps a veteran suffering from PTSD, perhaps this is his nightmare. ...And yet. there is blue sky, patches of green grass in the dry yellow. While he seems almost praying or acknowledging the difficulties of the forces about him in a bowed position, and even insurmountably crawling forward, he also connects deeply to the ground on 'all fours.' In my sense of it, he draws energy for existence itself from the earth.
He is homeless; he has nothing, shorn of all trappings; he is still human. He maintains his dignity.
Hello another, more 'positive' meaning. Primal Man, meaning I leave it up to you, the viewer, to figure it out if you are at all so inclined.
I'm not sure about the tree above his head - though I had planned this evergreen tree from the moment I conceived him, and it's exactly as I imagined it would be in paint, a bit crude and child-like, not too neat, a little Emily Carr but not too much, sharing with the colour of the Canadian Mounties, no less.
Okay, never mind what I say. Since when is the artist the best person to talk about a painting?
See yesterday's sketch for an earlier description of what was in my mind with this painting.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Blake Man, in-process
It was a difficult day - but not in any way you would imagine (I mean it, so don't even try to guess). I drew in the midst of it, thinking vulnerable man, but there is a part of me that wants to paint explosions around him, so war man perhaps. Although I was thinking a lot of William Blake's etchings, and of a primal man, Blake's Albion or something, only he is on all fours, crawling. Does that make him a 'sub' to a 'dom,' then? Some kind of bondage image? Or can he be skinless and vulnerable, crawling while bombs explode about him? Greenery, I see that too. Can he just be a poetic image that I have imagined?
Hopefully tomorrow will allow time to paint. The paint will tell the story that is emerging, give it a direction it does not have at present.
Hopefully tomorrow will allow time to paint. The paint will tell the story that is emerging, give it a direction it does not have at present.
Blake Man, Brenda Clews, 2012, 24" x 18", 60cm x 45cm, charcoal on 90lb archival paper.
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
She Rests on Pillows in the Grass
This figure is a strange amalgam of women who do not own themselves. Painting it, I thought of a distressed street woman that I see on Bloor St who is quite anorexic and clearly an addict, and who I sometimes see sitting on the grass in parks in the area with her alcoholic boyfriend, and then, I guess somewhat contrastingly, I thought of the buxom models of artists who sometimes bear the children of the painters (think Picasso and his women, or Klimt, who apparently always had a few naked models lounging around in his studio and apparently fathered a dozen or so children), of the sensuality of a Fragonard and the cutting of razor sharp blue paint as it slides in rivulets down the prepared paper.
She Rests on Pillows in the Grass, 2012, Brenda Clews24" x 18", 60cm x 45cm, oil paint on 90lb archival paper.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Yoga for Your Back
A sore back? This often happens to us. Our spines are very complex structures that have to support us, bend flexibly, and be the pillar for the wrap of capillaries, veins, arteries, nerves that weave to and connect every part of us. A few days ago I carried too much home on my shoulder, and the next day my shoulder blade was very sore (note: remember not to do that again!), and perhaps it spread because now my lower back is sore.
When this happens, out comes the yoga mat. And on goes the calming piano music. And I begin flexing my back, rhythmically, in an orderly fashion if you follow the chakras. I'll be good and do this every morning until my back is fine again. I did this set early every morning for about five years, from 1994-1999, and sporadically since then (though it should be regularly).
Sharing the original post that I put up in 2006. It's one of my most popular posts if I go by Google Stats. This particular set of exercises is very helpful to maintain a healthy and flexible back.
Kundalini Yoga: Guidelines for Sadhana (Pomona, California: Kundalini Research Institute, 1974), p.45-6. For another layout of this set, see Basic Spinal Series, and scroll to the end to read a description of Mul Bhand (root lock) and Maha Bhand (great lock).
Note: This set is in an unlisted album at Picasa and only findable with the link.
When this happens, out comes the yoga mat. And on goes the calming piano music. And I begin flexing my back, rhythmically, in an orderly fashion if you follow the chakras. I'll be good and do this every morning until my back is fine again. I did this set early every morning for about five years, from 1994-1999, and sporadically since then (though it should be regularly).
Sharing the original post that I put up in 2006. It's one of my most popular posts if I go by Google Stats. This particular set of exercises is very helpful to maintain a healthy and flexible back.
Kundalini Yoga: Guidelines for Sadhana (Pomona, California: Kundalini Research Institute, 1974), p.45-6. For another layout of this set, see Basic Spinal Series, and scroll to the end to read a description of Mul Bhand (root lock) and Maha Bhand (great lock).
Note: This set is in an unlisted album at Picasa and only findable with the link.
(think I should always add this when I post yoga sets)
Monday, July 09, 2012
Lyrical Poetry & Madness
Is the lyrical world - of poetry, of song - a world of such danger that those who draw their inspiration from it court madness?
I listened to a TVO poscast, Nick Mount on Sylvia Plath's Ariel, where he makes this point so strongly that I was left wondering if that's what it is.
When you put Nick Mount who says we all become lyrical poets when we fall in love (towards the end of the talk) with Julia Kristeva's Tales of Love who says we all become poets who burst our stories when we fall in love then... well, you'd see where my mind is tonight.
For Mount, the lyrical poem/song has an inherent danger (of madness, break-down, suicide) to the creator of it since it requires a 'leaving of time' to be. For Kristeva, the language of the poets, the lyricisms of the semiotic, are part of the story of love itself, which is only possible outside of the narratives we live our lives through.
Are our narratives, and perhaps all narratives, stories of time, then?
Does narrative have a deep connection to conventional time in ways that lyrical poetry and perhaps falling-in-love itself does not?
You can see why I rarely write discursively in my blog. How do I explain these thoughts without giving you the backgrounds of the books I have read, the talks I have listened to? There is so much more than these few thoughts, too, on this question.
I wonder if it's permissible to write a few cryptic things as best I can rather than nothing because whatever it is I am thinking about today is too complex to relate fully?
I listened to a TVO poscast, Nick Mount on Sylvia Plath's Ariel, where he makes this point so strongly that I was left wondering if that's what it is.
When you put Nick Mount who says we all become lyrical poets when we fall in love (towards the end of the talk) with Julia Kristeva's Tales of Love who says we all become poets who burst our stories when we fall in love then... well, you'd see where my mind is tonight.
For Mount, the lyrical poem/song has an inherent danger (of madness, break-down, suicide) to the creator of it since it requires a 'leaving of time' to be. For Kristeva, the language of the poets, the lyricisms of the semiotic, are part of the story of love itself, which is only possible outside of the narratives we live our lives through.
Are our narratives, and perhaps all narratives, stories of time, then?
Does narrative have a deep connection to conventional time in ways that lyrical poetry and perhaps falling-in-love itself does not?
You can see why I rarely write discursively in my blog. How do I explain these thoughts without giving you the backgrounds of the books I have read, the talks I have listened to? There is so much more than these few thoughts, too, on this question.
I wonder if it's permissible to write a few cryptic things as best I can rather than nothing because whatever it is I am thinking about today is too complex to relate fully?
Sunday, July 08, 2012
Insomnia
Tell it with split tongues
and lightning flicker
in bleary, bloodshot eyes.
The black flood of night.
Remember the never-healing wound
of the fisher king,
I know it well.
Clots like rocks in the flowing black river
of the volcano within.
I want my words to rise like incantations.
On the fumes rising above the tripod
where the Oracle of Delphi sits knowing,
knowing she knows...
I almost don't care about you who are reading this.
It's a life and death struggle within myself.
It's very private.
Pulling the curtain back slightly, I hear
no birdsong at this dark hour,
no glimmering dawn.
In the void, I throw the antidote in.
Incantations
that would undo the spell if it were a spell.
Probably it isn't a spell,
probably it's
reality.
Words to split the earth apart,
change the dismal landscape,
re-orient the black
burning spots.
_
pieced together from words spoken into a voice memo during a sleepless night,
final draft written July 8, 2012 in Toronto
In case of misunderstanding, I need to say that this poem is not bleak but very positive.
and lightning flicker
in bleary, bloodshot eyes.
The black flood of night.
Remember the never-healing wound
of the fisher king,
I know it well.
Clots like rocks in the flowing black river
of the volcano within.
I want my words to rise like incantations.
On the fumes rising above the tripod
where the Oracle of Delphi sits knowing,
knowing she knows...
I almost don't care about you who are reading this.
It's a life and death struggle within myself.
It's very private.
Pulling the curtain back slightly, I hear
no birdsong at this dark hour,
no glimmering dawn.
In the void, I throw the antidote in.
Incantations
that would undo the spell if it were a spell.
Probably it isn't a spell,
probably it's
reality.
Words to split the earth apart,
change the dismal landscape,
re-orient the black
burning spots.
_
pieced together from words spoken into a voice memo during a sleepless night,
final draft written July 8, 2012 in Toronto
In case of misunderstanding, I need to say that this poem is not bleak but very positive.
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